Friends

I have been thinking a lot about friends and friendship lately. I think because I have really good friends going through one of, if not the, largest crises of their life, and I do not know how to help. That is a horrible feeling. To see the pain and feel the hurt, and know there is nothing I can really do.
To an extent, friendship is a matter of proximity. In college, I had lots of good friends. Now that I don't see them everyday, those friendships have lessened, certainly not gone away, but definitely lessened. Still, there are some friends that I have, that even thought we are not physically close to one another, and perhaps do not talk as often, I know we could pick up tomorrow as if time and distance never mattered.
It's interesting to me, the people who have come into my life. What is it about some people that makes you feel so connected to them? And then wondering if they feel the same way...I have friends that I would literally do anything for, several of them. And for this I am infinitely blessed.
I have heard it said that we recognize familiar souls. I don't know the depth and implications of this philosophy, but it is an interesting thought. The sad thing is, I never really express to these people just how much they mean to me. I am there when they need me, but it is scary to think that something could happen, and I may have never told them how much I love them. I think it's scary because I have to wonder if these people feel as deeply connected to me as I do to them? Nonreciprocated love hurts. I often wonder if I am strange in this regard.
I am also immensely protective of my close friends. I fight their battles like they are my own and I celebrate their triumphs with as much joy as they do. And when it's all over, I often feel like I have overstepped my bounds, and I probably have.
But, back to what made me think about this to begin with. I have learned, that sometimes, even deep, committed friendships are not enough. There is still a space. I have learned that this is a God shaped space that I cannot fill for anyone else, nor can anyone else fill it for me. Sadly, I have only learned this in theory. And until the day that I can live it, I will continue to rely on those people God has brought into my life.

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Howdy folks! I am very excited to have a place to share my random thoughts! I am currently teaching High School English at a small school and I love it! I never thought I would end up being a teacher, but now I cannot imagine doing anything else. My husband Adam, is the love of my life, and in May we will have been married for 3 years. We have two vivacious chihuahua's named Babe and Spike, and two very different cats named Sophie and Phoebe. Life over the last few years has been consistent only in the fact that everything is always changing. We are always full of surprises so stay tuned!!